The diary entry I wish I didn’t have to make -COVID’21

Death and despair

People are dying every second as I write this. The third wave a triple mutation of coronavirus is here in India. What started in Wuhan China 2020 has now claimed millions of lives till today and is taking a nastier turn.
The Indian people and politicians have downplayed the dangers and have been careless. It is a sheer case of negligence and blood game of politics with religion. When things were seemingly back to normal people played Holi, Partied, Kumbh mela was allowed and also political rallies happened. Vaccines and oxygen cylinders have been exported instead of being given to our citizens. But now it’s time to do what’s to be done; it’s now a disaster response scenario.

People who live hand to mouth in numerous cities of this vast country had no other option than to flee the cities in search of work and the mass exodus is happening again.

I have been fascinated by apocalypse, science fiction and zombie movies as an alternate dystopian reality but now my mind is constantly trying to give up. The present scenario is not real, please someone wake me up from this dream.
Now as I write this sitting inside a box in a high rise at Mumbai ; one of the epicenter of the pandemic, I can literally hear ambulance sirens every few minutes from the highways. The news is only a horror show.
People are losing their loved ones and I fear for mine.
When the pandemic initially started it was a disease deadly only if you were too old or had other co-morbidities. But now it's attacking young children and babies via multi-inflammatory immune responses!. These are lives who had just started to experience this world. They didn't deserve this!

All my wants, fears or complaints seem so damn insignificant to the present World. This could be prevented but only if we had learnt our lessons last year. The virus was trying to teach us something. But I guess we failed the class.

Seeing death so closely for the first time in masses, is scaring me.

We are mortal. People are being denied basic hospital care, beds and oxygen every second as I am penning this.

All the numbers of deaths flashing on headlines, are not just statistics they are real human beings who had dreams and hopes of a beautiful life.

Sitting at home is such a privilege. Having a job is such a privilege. Now that everything is uncertain; I feel I wouldn't ever wish this upon my worst enemy! This is gruesome.
I wish noone goes through this hell and this ends soon.

I am reminding myself to be thankful for every breath every moment. The future of the pandemic looks bleak. However we are trying to be positive and motivated; we all know we are a little broken inside. We don't want to face this reality. We are all helpless and vulnerable.

Light at the end of the tunnel

But between this chaos there is humanity shining through ; doctors on the frontline and communities serving each other with food and other essentials.

I want to live to see the future and do everything that my heart yearns to. I pray that people find the courage to face this dark era. I pray that people heal of this deadly virus and we Indians and the world is able to win over this virus.
I pray that anyone and everyone related to me by blood or not are blessed with the strength to fight this disease and it's fear.
I pray I am able to see my loved ones and friends soon.

And if you read this I hope you sleep sound tonight with a heart full of hope and wake up to see a tomorrow where we are safe . I pray that we are grateful for this chance at living and find out light at the end of this tunnel.